Beating My Head Against the Wall

I know it’s only a feeling; but DEAR GOD does it HAVE to be so strong and can’t it SHUT OFF for just
      ONE
               SECOND  ?

I have calculated all the reasons why I do.
I remember EVERY REASON why I shouldn’t; but...like a sleeping baby’s heartbeat...
IT BEATS THE SAME !
                           CONSISTENTLY !
                                                      PERSISTENTLY !
through it all.

But SO WHAT !? It’s just a feeling, right!? It’s just love.
And yet the ONE thing that keeps me strong, the ONE memory that came too late -
ONE HUGE THICK IMPENETRABLE WALL ALONE -

I WAS
           THE ONLY ONE
                                        THAT FELT THIS WAY !